TRAPPED by DKZ                                 Feeling like a caged bird                                 Trapped in my own inner prison                                 With the threat of the outside world                                 And fear continually haunting me                                 I try to be in control                                 An image of confidence is my game                                 I say I can handle it all                                 I often crumble and fall                                 Under the weight of the doubts and the pain                                 What do I have to do                                 To break the control of the past                                 Simply to exist in the present                                 Without the constant fears that last                                 The world inside and out threats to crush                                 To hurt my existence, my well-being                                 It controls my thoughts and actions                                 And prevents me from any real living                                 Their world defies intellect and feelings                                 Imposes constant threats and fears                                 It crushes and controls all my beings                                 A safe place doesn't seem to exist anywhere                                 My only crime was being born to the wrong woman                                 Into her viscous world where only silence and lies mattered                                 Either follow her game plan or be discredited away                                 Beyond that nothing really seemed to matter anyway                                 The hope and promise of each new day                                 Desperately searched for, but not often perceived                                 The darkness and isolation of the night                                 Are often the only things that can be believed                                 Bitterness and resentment at a world                                 Where from birth I was targeted in                                 Anger at the impact of a declared war on my being                                 The inability to find peace, never mind win                                 I need to live, not just exist                                 But where do I find the safety I need                                 I need to talk, to hope, to understand                                 But lack of trust chokes me like a weed                                 I need to really feel a part                                 To be connected to what I see                                 To stay a part of space and time                                 Without retreating somewhere inside of me                                 I need to be able to experience some safety                                 To stay in the world around me                                 Feelings and thoughts from yesterday often intrude                                 Confusion and fear become all that I can see                                 I can't seem to consistently stay here                                 Driven elsewhere by bitter cold and constant pain                                 From a world of irrational battles and war                                 Living continually upon their razor-filled plain                                 Allies around, yet it seems I'm fighting alone                                 Trying to exist and live in a more peaceful way                                 Looking for a ray of sunshine, of hope                                 A place where screams and tapes inside                                 Don't fill my every night and day