IF YOU REALLY DO EXIST CAN YOU TELL ME WHY? by Daisy         Is there really a God, somewhere up above         A God or higher power supposedly so full of love         If you really do exist can you please tell me why         Why have I had to suffer so many years of my life         Had I done so wrong by you         Did I do something that made you mad         How could you be so loving         How could you be thought of as kind         How could you have let me be hurt so         A reason for all the pain I suffered         Is so hard for me to find         It's hard for me to even consider         You could exist at all         If you really do exist can you tell me why         I was only twelve years old at the time         When you in many ways tried to take my life away         I just can't find a reason         It makes no sense to me         What good could ever come         What purpose could there be         For putting a twelve year old child         Through such misery         If you really do exist I wish you'd come to me         I'd like to know your reasons         For allowing that man to abuse me         It makes no sense at all         Why a child had to suffer such pain         Wasn't there some other way         And I don't mean by using someone else         Couldn't you have found another way         For the lesson to be learned         Or was my lesson to be         Learn to hate yourself         Learn to have no sense of value         Learn to value others lives         And ignore your own life exists         Learn to believe and feel         You have no worth         You can't trust         Learn to tolerate pain         You'd know how much I did         and thought it was my fault         If and only if you really do exist         Or were you using me as a test         A test to see how much pain and suffering         One can take before they break         If I was a part of a test         I hope you realize now         I'm a hell of a lot stronger         Than you may have considered at the time         I never broke,         I SURVIVED         Many before me         Could not find the strength to go on         So many before me died         Because of what You put them through         Before you choose another to live such a life         Please consider not everyone         Has the strength and will to survive         Why make people die         With so much torment inside         Why can't they get the chance to live         With inner peace in their life         If you really do exist can you tell me why         Why have so many like me         Have to live through         Such pain and suffering in their lives...